Lately I have noticed this transition as I am finally letting things be of the past and take on their new role that they're meant to take. I find myself being, well, me again. There's no lingering shadow of what was has appeared to be holding me back in some ways. I find that I have been rediscovering myself and how I think. There has been a sense of weight being lifted from my shoulders, erasing the constant stress and play on my emotions. It may have taken me months to see it, no matter how quickly I believed myself to have moved forward with change. Sometimes it just takes awhile for the light to shine in your face as it did with me. For once in such a long time, I feel there is honestly optimism and opportunities in every moment. The negative is decreased and I can feel like I can let loose and shake things off. The pieces have started to fall into place, just where they are meant to be. The pieces won't necessarily be perfect for life does not work that way, but yet they always find their place. Sometimes all you need is that walk in the park or down the street, or that standstill moment just thinking. I have never felt so happy, so content, so at peace of mind, so free. The individual that I am, with [well, for the most part] only the influence of my own person, my own thoughts, my own actions as they allow me to take that next step forward to push through the mess, the madness, the chaos that we all call life.
Life is a game with no rules. You have to just take it as it comes. If you're not happy, make the change for yourself. There is no use in waiting to see if it will occur in some other way. Yet, never change your actual self. It is a matter of growth and of evolution, not change. Change will play a trick of causing you to lose sight of yourself, thus, you lose sight of your life. Every person is their very own individual and once that individual is lost, there won't be another. So catch it as it falters and don't let go. But don't be surprised when you do find yourself faltering. It is only natural for it to happen at some point, whether it is due to the heavily hovering influence of another or a seemingly impossible to defeat obstacle in your way. It simply happens.
I don't regret my own faltering as it has led me to a deeper understanding of my own being. It opened my eyes wider than before as it has given me a new drive, a new sensation, a more in-depth way of thinking. It's another reason to continue to make my life my own.
-The Crunchy Granola Nut
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